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I woke up around 3 a.m. last night in a panic over what to do about the whole job/child care situation. I always do this…get so worked up over something to the point where I can't do anything about it.
I just don't know what to do. I'm not sure if I should just grit my teeth and enroll him in the super-expensive program where I would like him to go, thereby having to ask my family for more help financially…god, will this never end? bleh, I can't even think about it right now. Plus, I keep getting this sinking feeling that I will never be able to actually attain a job that is worth a damn. That government subsidy for child care is such a fucking joke I can't even get into it.
