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whatever

I don't care.

fishcakes.

I'm feeling not so good this morning…kind of like I'm about to get a urinary tract infection and if anything turns me into raging beast it's those. To put a cherry on top, my insurance hasn't started yet so any doctor's appointments/prescriptions that I might have to endure will have to be paid out of pocket. rargh.

Political gripe for the day: the fancy new tax cut will not give the $400 child credit to most low-income families. W. is such a cocksucker I can't even believe it. And I have a pretty strong feeling that he's going to be re-elected.

The baby, the boyfriend and I had such a fun night last night. We played around in the living room for awhile. Then after the baby had his bath we sat with him on our bed and had a total lovefest. He kept snuggling up to us and giving us kisses and hugs. It was the best. He didn't sleep in nearly as long as I thought he would today, which kind of sucked for me because as soon as I woke up I was having that crappy feeling in my bladder…okay I won't talk about that anymore.

I had this crazy dream last night. In the capitalism class that I took last year, there was this kid that Jonah and I hated. We called him Fascist Joe, because his name was Joe and, well, he was a fascist. Well, actually, I don't know if all of his political and economic philosophies fell in line with fascism, but he was certainly an asshole. He's kind of like the New Hipublicans that the NYT magazine was talking about this past weekend. He looked like Thom Yorke but talked like Bill O'Reilly.
Anyway, I had a dream that we were in some class together, he said something assy and I totally flipped out on him. And I don't mean that I started yelling at him, I mean that I started beating the shit out of him. I got some good hits in, but I must have been pretty weak since he continued to laugh at me the whole time. Then he left to go skateboard or something. I encounter the dumbest people. Then I have even dumber dreams about them. How irritating.

I need to shower. Then I guess I'll start chugging cranberry juice. fuck.

After a little digging, I found out that the moderators of went perusing through several fun-filled communities, including (of which I'm a member…duh). They picked random people and added them to their community. How very odd. I don't know what to make of the whole thing.

I was looking at my user info for a minute and noticed that I am now a member of . Thing is, I have no recollection of joining this community or ever seeing or hearing of it before in my life. I have no idea how I came to be a member. Anyone got any ideas how this could have happened?
Dumbfounded,
Kelly

That's the sound that my son is making over the baby monitor at this moment. I've been trying to put him down for a nap for about an hour but with no success. I know he's tired, though. So I just put him in his crib in the hopes that he'll tire himself out. It's been about ten minutes and he's still wide awake it seems.

I'm waiting on the boyfriend to get home. yay

I went to look at a day care center today and was pretty happy with what I saw. The director was out to lunch so I'm going to call later and have her mail me their literature. I'll probably go back one more time to talk to her in person, but overall I felt really comfortable there. It's much cheaper than the JCC, too, but not so cheap that you wonder what the hell is going on.

So that makes me feel a lot more confident about starting off on my job search. Of course, I just read something in the NY Times about one of the libraries there starting an open air lending library and how that was all the rage during the Depression and could this be the sign of a new one? Not encouraging.

Also not encouraging was my Uncle Jimmy's look of disgust when I told him about my QPA. He pretty much dashed any hopes I had of getting into grad school, but I think it was mostly a platform for him to tell me about all the fabulous grades he got when he was in college. Yeah, lotta good it did you, you gingivitis-ridden snob. No matter, though.

tickets…on sale….tomorrow…Eddie Izzard…I'm going….to die….

Today has been rather boring. I got plenty of sleep, which was very nice. Mostly I've farted around and done laundry, whined to my mother for having to go to my grandparents' country club for a Memorial Day picnic. Am I alone or doesn't there seem to be something so wrong about that? A picnic, to me, means cheap meat and beer and a boombox playing scratched CDs. I'm also befuddled by my mom's recent habit of getting mad at me for her own ineptitude. I don't think it's my fault that she's spent the last two days at various cemeteries throughout the city dusting off the graves of our dearly departed, but somehow she keeps yelling, “Kelly, I wanted to get a lot done this weekend!” Great, get shit done, quit visiting graves you fucking cult of the dead. I think she's just pissy because she has about three billion outfits stored in the basement, all of which she is currently too fat to wear. But again, this is not my fault. I am, however, a little peeved by the fact that she continues to buy certain junk foods which I have no resolve over…namely Swedish Fish and M&Ms. If these are around I get all Dr. Strangelove and don't realize what my hand is doing until I'm stuffing candy into my mouth.
But whatever, that wasn't the point of this post. I just wanted to say that Saturday night at Paco's was pretty fun, although there were several times when it seemed to parody itself. I had to stifle a few laughs when several acoustic guitars appeared out of nowhere and the muffled verses of Neil Young songs started to fill the night air. I mean, really. The only people I knew were Paco, his roommate Jon, and Jonah. I was a tad uncomfortable. Aided by a few White Russians, I had quite a few slurred heart-to-hearts with people I barely knew. I also got to talk with Paco and Jonah about matters of life and love which is always good to do…especially when you can't really remember all of the cheesy shit you say to your best friends. 😉
I'm really anxious today and I'm not sure why.
I heard from the boyfriend today, finally. He said that he's having a blast. I don't doubt it. I'm a little jealous but oh well. Hopefully next year when the baby's a little older and I trust someone with him for four days and we have some more money we'll both be able to go and do it up right. None of that stuffing canned goods into a pillowcase and crashing on the floor of your friends' hotel room nonsense that he pulled this year. There's roughing it and then there's just being lame.
On Saturday I started dreaming up a party that I want to throw in the fall. I'm thinking it will be like a combined birthday party for the boyfriend and me. In my mind, it's going to be totally dope. But we'll see what actually comes to fruition.
I have a feeling that I've made a ton of grammar mistakes in this post and I kinda don't care.
New addition to the To Be Stabbed List: the fuckheads featured in the NYT Magazine article about the newest generation of Republicans. Their scam is to dress and act like stereotypical liberals, make friends with them, and then slowly convince them to cross over. Assholes. And if Ann Coulter just shut the fuck up real soon….I don't know I'm getting too mad just thinking about her.
I need sex.

gushiness gushiness, I miss the boyfriend a lot. This sucks.

I went to Paco's last night which was pretty fun. I really didn't drink that much, but it was enough to put me way over my WW points for the day. annoying.

oh, fuckit, I don't feel like doing this right now.

I stayed up really late last night watching TV. Kicking and Screaming was on the Trio channel…at least I think that's what channel it was. I hadn't seen that movie in such a long time and it made me really happy…and sad.
I was having trouble falling asleep since the boyfriend wasn't there. How pathetic. I ate an entire bag of popcorn by myself. I sprayed I Can't Believe It's Not Butter on it and then sprinkled some of the Cajun seasoning that my mom brought me from New Orleans. It was really fucking good.
I started to watch Elimidate but it was four guys competing for a girl and I found that I just wasn't interested. Somehow it's far more amusing for me to watch the girls make asses of themselves. Does that make me a traitor?
Wow I think this is my most boring entry to date.
uuhhhh, let me see. Yesterday the baby and I went to Pulp for a minute because they were having a cook out on the loading dock. It took forever to get there but it was worth it. The baby had fun flirting with all the ladies and I got to talk to Shanley and Cindy and Geoff which was nice. I hadn't talked to them in awhile. Everyone there is just so damn cool. I don't think I've worked anywhere that the people were that easy to get along with. That makes me even more nervous about going to look for a job. I keep imagining myself trapped under fluorescent lights with a bunch of dolts.
shudder.
Baby stinks.
Later

I stole this from . Thanks, even though you don't read this journal. ;-p
This is an odd selection of movies, but whatever.

100 Movies. Bold the ones you've seen.

1 Godfather, The (1972)
2 Shawshank Redemption, The (1994)
3 Godfather: Part II, The (1974)
4 Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, The (2001)
5 Schindler's List (1993)
6 Citizen Kane (1941)
7 Casablanca (1942)
8 Seven Samurai (1954)
9 Star Wars (1977)
10 Dr. Strangelove(1964)
11 Memento (2000)
12 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)
13 Rear Window (1954)
14 Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, The (2002)

15 Star Wars: Episode V – The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
16 Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
17 Usual Suspects, The (1995)
18 Amelie (2001)
19 Pulp Fiction (1994)
20 North by Northwest (1959)
21 Psycho (1960)
22 Silence of the Lambs, The (1991)
23 12 Angry Men (1957)
24 Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
25 It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
26 The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (1966)
27 Goodfellas (1990)
28 American Beauty (1999)

29 Vertigo (1958)
30 Pianist, The (2002)
31 Sunset Blvd. (1950)
32 Apocalypse Now (1979)
33 Some Like It Hot (1959)
34 Matrix, The (1999)
35 To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
36 Taxi Driver (1976)
37 Third Man, The (1949)
38 Paths of Glory (1957)
39 Fight Club (1999)
40 Das Boot (1981)
41 L.A. Confidential (1997)
42 Double Indemnity (1944)
43 Chinatown (1974)
44 Requiem for a Dream (2000)

45 Maltese Falcon, The (1941)
46 Singin' in the Rain (1952)
47 Bridge on the River Kwai, The (1957)
48 Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001)
49 Saving Private Ryan (1998)
50 All About Eve (1950)
51 M (1931)
52 Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
53 Raging Bull (1980)
54 Once Upon a Time in the West (1968)
55 Se7en (1995)
56 Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon (2000)
57 Wizard of Oz, The (1939)
58 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
59 Vita e bella, La (1997)
60 American History X (1998)

61 Sting, The (1973)
62 Touch of Evil (1958)
63 Manchurian Candidate, The (1962)
64 Alien (1979)
65 Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)
66 Rashemon (1950)
67 Leon (1994)
68 Annie Hall (1977)
69 Great Escape, The (1963)
70 Clockwork Orange, A (1971)
71 Treasure of the Sierra Madre, The (1948)
72 Reservoir Dogs (1992)
73 Sixth Sense, The (1999)
74 Jaws (1975)
75 Amadeus (1984)

76 On the Waterfront (1954)
77 Ran (1985)
78 Braveheart (1995)
79 High Noon (1952)
80 Fargo (1996)
81 Blade Runner (1982)
82 Apartment, The (1960)
83 Aliens (1986)
84 Toy Story 2 (1999)
85 Strangers on a Train (1951)
86 Modern Times (1936)
87 Shining, The (1980)
88 Donnie Darko (2001)

89 Duck Soup (1933)
90 Princess Bride, The (1987)
91 Lola rennt (1998)
92 City Lights (1931)
93 General, The (1927)
94 Metropolis (1927)
95 Searchers, The (1956)
96 Full Metal Jacket (1970)
97 Notorious (1946)
98 Manhattan (1979)
99 Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969)
100 Graduate, The (1967)

Ok, that wasted just enough time for my kid to poop. yippee!